well i celebrated my 20th birthday and somehow my life turned around 180°... alcohol is flowing more than before, smoke is rasing up to the sky, girls are easier to get, i found job so i have money to enjoy myself, i found some new interests like math and physic and i feel that i'm getting smarter... i'm about to graduate so that's usefull like hell... i'm amazed how fast time is flowing and how quick are changes everywhere... i wonder if it's by my age or the age we live in... but i have nothing to complain about, maybe i'd like to meet some girl for relationship not for one night fuck... i confessed myself to the one girl few days ago and it was disaster... i'm usually good with girls, but when i fall for some i'm useless in speaking... i guess it needs more life experience and calm and it will come itself

i didn;t post anything for long time... it was caused by enjoying joys of life... maybe i'll take some devious pic of myself again and maybe i'll finally realize what i wear in my head for two years or maybe more... and if i'll finish some projects in my laboratory nicely i'll post it too, but i'm afraid that electronic circuits are not interesting for anybody

and in the end i'd like to say hi to everyone i know here so "hi everybody" and to my norwegian angel especially ^__^